Friday, July 30, 2021

The Power of Perception

Today, in heat and humidity in Tokyo, the men's 10,000 meter race will take place.

Let's time travel for a moment.

The year was 1964, the last time the summer Olympics were held in Tokyo prior to this year. 

An unknown American was in that race. Billy Mills, hailing from the Lakota Nation, entered the race with a personal best that was a minute slower than the world record holder Ron Clark who was the favorite to win. Mills had suffered discrimination and hardship throughout his life, including losing his mother when he was 8 years old. He reflected on advice from his father during the mourning over losing his mother:

"My dad told me I had broken wings. He said, 'I am going to share something with you and if you follow it, someday you may have the wings of an eagle. Look beyond the hurt, the hate, the jealousy, the self-pity. All of those emotions destroy you'. 

He said, 'Look deeper, way down deeper where the dreams lie. You've gotta find a dream, son'. It is the pursuit of a dream that will heal broken souls."

Cut to the race. 

Last lap. 

Mills has stuck with two other runners who are now battling it out as a trio. He survives being tripped and almost falling to the ground with about 350 meters to go. Of note, the American announcers on the call ignore Mills and focus on the other two runners (from Tunisia and Australia), as if they don't see him right there in the mix.

And then, out of seemingly nowhere and with seemingly no time left to catch up, Mills puts on a sprint that made the other two look as if they were frozen in time. 

With a few seconds to go, Billy Mills passes into first. He wins, the first American to win the Olympic 10,000 meters, and to this day the only one to win at that distance. Close to a minute better than his previous best.

Mills recounts something beautiful in these last 15 seconds of the race:

"As I go by the runner, out of the corner of my eye, in the center of his jersey, I saw an eagle. It was so powerful...back to my dad. 'Son, if you do these things, someday you can have the wings of an eagle.' I have got to do it now! Wings of an eagle! I won! I won!"

I go to find the runner with the eagle on his singlet to tell him that the eagle helped me win. I found him. There was no eagle [on his singlet]. It was just the perception.

I feel so strongly that perceptions can create us. Our perceptions can destroy us. We can choreograph our journey."

The power of perception. What we may discount as visions, as delusions, as hallucinations may be life bringing us to something bigger, better than we ever imagined. The eagle Billy Mills saw was as real as it needed to be. It allowed him to push to a level he might not have found and connected him to something greater. It displaced all doubt and uncertainty and focused him on the finish line ahead.

When we see that eagle on the metaphoric shirt in front of  us, may we simply have the courage to dig deep and say as Mills did, "I have got to do it now!"


Video of Mills talking about the Tokyo race (above) and a story from WBUR in Boston 

that was the inspiration for this piece here.

Sunday, July 18, 2021

Room 11

We had a great conversation throughout the telehealth visit.

Maybe one of the best of my week.

John seemed to really appreciate our time together.

We got ready to close the visit, something I still find a bit awkward over the phone. No body language to rely on or to which I can react.

You would think Zoom would be better, but I still find the closing of a Zoom meeting or visit even more strange. You say bye, but you don’t want to click “end meeting” too quick, as this could be taken as your desire to get outta there FAST. Like in the pre-COVID world if you sprinted for the door.

But even worse is when neither party makes that “end meeting” click. You find yourselves staring at one another in a kind of middle school dance weirdness. Staring at each other, no longer in a meeting but also still there together. Staring. Awkward. Weird.

Back to John.

I wished him a wonderful day. About to hang up the phone.

“Doc, do I just leave the room myself?”

Huh?

“Do I just let myself out?”

Huh?

“I am in room 11 in your clinic.”

Huh?

In a COVID-ain’t-quite-done-yet moment, I had had a 20 minute telephone conversation with someone who was sitting on the other side of the wall, in my clinic. With all of my patients prior to John being telehealth visits that morning, I had missed the nursing triage paperwork that clearly said “Room 11” when it came to seeing John.

We laughed. John at me. Me at me.

I got up and went to room 11. We laughed some more. A hug and then I walked him out of the clinic.

We all find ourselves in similarly strange, awkward, and hilarious moments as we emerge from the depths of the pandemic. Meetings where we don’t know if masks are required. Events where we have to clarify if it is in-person or virtual. I imagine your weekly planner is as messy as mine – “9:30am meeting, in-person. Wear a mask for this one”.

Smile, don’t frown, when this week’s COVID-ain’t-quite-done-yet moments smack you in the face. This is our reality for the next 6-12 months. A good sign that things are returning to normal, even if awkward or embarrassing.

Shoot, it can’t be any worse than me hearing John say, “I am in room 11 in your clinic.”





Tuesday, July 6, 2021

Weini's Race

The day we met Weini, we knew she was a special person.

The setting was a UNM indoor track meet.

Weini Kelati, a runner for the Lobos had just set a meet record in the mile run.

She stepped off the track, caught her breath and then proceeded to sit with our Running Medicine youth for the next 15 minutes. Topics included Jo Jo Siwa, favorite foods and the reasons why we run.

Weini continued to excel, winning national championships in track and cross country. But she never stopped coming to share her energy and time with our group.

The day the pandemic hit in March 2020, she was prepared to win a few more NCAA titles as UNM was to host the indoor national championships. Teams had already arrived in Albuquerque for the meet, but the meet never happened. Facing uncertainty this fall of whether racing would happen during her senior year, she signed with Under Armour, joining the select few who get to run professionally.

Our Native Health Initiative had a chance to pay her back somewhat this spring, hosting her for her practicum in health education as she worked toward a college degree. In exchange, we had a professional runner hanging out with us, running with our youth in the Running Medicine program. Not a bad trade.

Two weeks ago, Weini has a week like no other. The U.S. Olympic Trials were well underway in Eugene, Oregon and yet she still did not know if she would be running. Not an issue of whether she was fast enough. Not a controversy like the ones we see play out in sports. The issue was the Weini was not a U.S. Citizen and would have to gain citizenship in order to toe the line.

Her 10k race was on Saturday, June 26th. As of Wednesday morning, she was still a citizen of Eritrea where she emigrated from at age 17. In a flurry of activity, she was allowed to sit for a citizenship test and take an oath Wednesday afternoon. But it was Friday evening before all of the other technicalities were completed and she was approved to run in the meet.


We were fortunate enough to be part of her welcoming party in Eugene, complete with signs we made for her. Yes, we wanted to see her win but we knew she had already won with U.S. Citizenship that had been such a long process for her.

We were in the front row cheering her on in a brutal 25-lap race run in brutal heat. She dropped out after staying with the first pack for the first miles.

So, she won’t be representing our country in Tokyo this summer, but Weini has a blindingly bright future ahead of her. Excited to continue to cheer her on as she cheers on others.

Pic with Weini (far right) and another former Lobo Edna Kurgat 
(also racing the 10k at U.S. Olympic Trials), Eugene, Oregon

Video of our family presenting Weini with the homemade posters in Eugene the day before the 10k race.

https://www.facebook.com/runningmedicineabq/videos/170358651734724/

Washington Post article about her journey the week of the Olympic Trials

Weini Kelati becomes a U.S. citizen just in time for a Tokyo Olympics bid - The Washington Post